It started with an examination of the emotions one (I) go through in my daily work, and the dilemmas the very structures of the work creates.
See, I told you....
Ok, as a "creative type", a person that creates stuff for a living, there are are structures and constant questions that we are always honing and asking.
1. Purpose. The work must be serving some purpose. The work must have a purpose, or it is simply pornography or phycological doodling. Why would you sign up for a job this tough unless it was at least an honest service.
Hitch: The more "popular" your work, the harder it is to find a handy purpose. People like Koons or Hirst or other "Fine" "Artists" can name ART as the purpose on the form and they are done for the day. For a craftsperson or designer, we are audience based, like many of the other collaborative arts. The audience's reaction and acceptance is paramount. The audience is the purpose.
2. The Rub: Who the Hell died and decided you had a destiny to share your "talents" with the world as some kind of purpose? Did you win American Idol or the Art Olympics in the Auto-didactic triartathon? AHHHHH - Enter EGO - Id.
So, could I please, pretty please, obtain, for even one single moment, the humility of an ancient monk, the bravada of an opera tenor, the social skills of a politician, the physical focus of an athlete and the technique of great magician?
But I can try. Decoro - the skills, Sprazzazia - the sell, Grazia, the harmony.
Perhaps it takes our whole - the good parts and the bad parts, the pretty parts and the unpleasant parts, all is spinning balance, to create.
Does purpose demand ego, or ego create purpose?
I warned you.